finally one more entry

gosh...i've been here so long I'm starting to feel the complications of life again.

When we all started out it's just new stuff and more new stuff, we just wanna take in so much for a sec we're not really living, we're watching a screen run before us on rollers.

Now though, i feel like i have a life here, filled with ups and downs and problems and complications and characters, like the way i was when i was home. and it's time to deal again. deal with stuff. stop being a tourist. Work isn't exactly good up till now, i'm still looking for a breakthrough. Friends, i'm worried i may be making some pretty good ones whom i might find hard to say goodbye when the time comes.

that's the thing with living, it's a whole package. How can you be detached from it when you're the center of everything. like having 2 feet stuck in the middle of a 100 feet sinking mudpool, and kinda baking half caked in the blistering sun, going neither here nor there.

i have a feeling i won't go back the same person i was. New name, new perspectives, new aptitudes, new attitudes. Lot's of things i'm gonna want to hang on.

How are my favourite people doing in Singapore. same as usual. i don't know, i'm too far to know. Oh my God it makes me sad. And the stuff i try to send back don't seem to reach anyone.

I went skiing last week...photos here...

http://jazzyjazzi.multiply.com/photos/album/11