finally one more entry

gosh...i've been here so long I'm starting to feel the complications of life again.

When we all started out it's just new stuff and more new stuff, we just wanna take in so much for a sec we're not really living, we're watching a screen run before us on rollers.

Now though, i feel like i have a life here, filled with ups and downs and problems and complications and characters, like the way i was when i was home. and it's time to deal again. deal with stuff. stop being a tourist. Work isn't exactly good up till now, i'm still looking for a breakthrough. Friends, i'm worried i may be making some pretty good ones whom i might find hard to say goodbye when the time comes.

that's the thing with living, it's a whole package. How can you be detached from it when you're the center of everything. like having 2 feet stuck in the middle of a 100 feet sinking mudpool, and kinda baking half caked in the blistering sun, going neither here nor there.

i have a feeling i won't go back the same person i was. New name, new perspectives, new aptitudes, new attitudes. Lot's of things i'm gonna want to hang on.

How are my favourite people doing in Singapore. same as usual. i don't know, i'm too far to know. Oh my God it makes me sad. And the stuff i try to send back don't seem to reach anyone.

I went skiing last week...photos here...

http://jazzyjazzi.multiply.com/photos/album/11

the latest on the job

acutally i can't call it "on the job" since technically i haven started actually DOING any work. while the reporters are burning their asses off finishing their story for the deadline i am kinda looking on the side with absolutely nothing to do. and whether they finish their stuff or not is all their business, so it's not in my interest to care either. but then again, as much as i LOVE to do my own story, i can't cos i can't f***ing drive. Aw...it's driving (stupid puns just pop up in my face) me nuts just thinking about it. And maybe when i really get to do my own story i'll fall apart from all the pressure. just fantasizing.

Ok i should document what happened over the past 3 days...i'm getting lazy here and i can't believe some people stopped reading. wed i went to a super boring forum which i fell asleep at (i can't believe i did that too), but despite the sucky story i met my golden girl (finally) Laura who's like super nice to me...kinda reminds me of May Ann. Thurs i went with Jen to cover a a crime story....hmmmzz. then today i went with jason again to do tragedy stuff. jason is like the greatest reporter ever. i mean there are probably thousands out there better than him but he's passionate, intense, smart...or should i say super smart and has the senses of a hound. oh and superb editing sense. ok that sounds too good to be true but yes, i do think so and so from thus on i shall make him my role model.

well actually somebody offered to help me photograph so i might actually get a chance to report, since well...that person will double up as driver. *pray*

ok i know this stuff are like kinda dry. it's just not ok to bitch here anymore because seriously some big mouth gave away this address to a couple of relatives and i don't want to cuss in front to the people who shouldn't be hearing it. well i do have another blog you noe *wink*

komu has live trucks, and i've been to 2 live shots. they were kinda cool.

and i went to this neighbourhood which looked like wisteria lane...from desperate housewives...i've got a picture.