just one of those days

u noe, life is so wierd. some days u feel like a goddess ready to stand on yer own 2 feet and take on de world and other days u feel like a disgusting, jellified wimp. And today is one of those days. it's proberly had been raining all nite and de sky looks grey, and everything outside de window seem to have taken on de glorious colour too...just great, im irritated now and de irritation must have exuded from me, into de keyboard and over de virtual channels of communication...now mi fren over msn can tell im grouchy. i hate talkin to pple when im feelin like a total booboo. oh crappiness. makes them feel like some unwanted kid. sigh better snap outts it...im going fr frazed to frustration and den finally a freakin grouch...

ok, so what i was trying to say, b4 i got soo pissed at de weather and everybody out there waddling in de puddles (chilling reminder of de tsunami..), i was lamenting at my inaptitude to reject people when they ask u ter do sth...and believe it dis has fuckin caused me a whole damn lot of trouble and extra work...and i wished they could hav seen de kinda of hassle they caused and think again, how its feels shld they be the ones doing it. i mean. and seriously i dun mind doing it once or twice...but de same person asking de same favour over and over again just goes out to make me feel like a DOORMAT.

othertimes...just rejecting a simple offer to go out wif some peeps can turn me into some boneless chicken cum rattlesnake... forever giving some crap answer to get out of it. honestly i just dun want ter tell them i'm not in de mood fer people and just feeling plain lazy ter go out...so we all try ter cover up wif some stooopid excuses. like "ooop i've got some family outing, sorry", yah...family outing to de living room ter watch TV more like...

im glooming dis place up...really feel like yer knee deep in shit when yer in a bad mood.

better stop....chiao